time can come

This blog started as one thing and I'm not sure what it became except for nothing.

I have lost the meaning to what I was doing here and am trying to find something to inspire me to reach out again. There have been tragedies and triumphs both personal and global, since I have taken an absence. I know I have posted a few things but nothing with heart. I need to try and have some heart again in this blog. That is what made me happy and feel good, not that I am not happy without it but, that I don't feel like complaining about being tired and unhappy with my body these days. That's just not who I want to be I want to be the positive change in my own life. I think that you can't use others to make you feel fulfilled, I am a mother and a wife but I need me too. I recently started playing soccer and realized I am in true need of friends, I have friends great friends, but I need friends I see more. I sometimes am a bit of a loner and easily let myself fall back into that. Playing soccer on a team of other grown women makes me feel empowered. I am still the kick a** competitor I once was. I still have it in me after all this time and even when I'm exhausted it's still there. I just need to harvest that feeling.

I also pretty much stopped finding myself new music to listen to and expand my horizons. I wasn't even following my favorite artists and failed to find the jewel of this epiphany. This song is called How by Regina Spektor this song brought me to tears the first time I heard it. Once I heard it I needed more and i proceeded to listen to the whole album What We Saw From The Cheap Seats. It is such moving album. If you listen to "How" I am pretty sure you will want to try some more of the album. I would suggest "Don't Leave Me (Ne me quitte pas)" and "All the Rowboats".

Time can come and take away the pain 

But I just want my memories to remain 

This post has not exactly come to a conclusion like I would have hoped but, I guess using my brain and heart together to semi compose a post is good for now. I just wish I had more at this time but, this seems to be it. The run on sentence in my mind has fallen tired and silent. 

I just hope I find some spot where I don't need to feel like a super mom or anything to write a post. I just need to be me and that's enough. Perhaps I'll take this time before I head off to sleep to edit a few more things on this blog that do not seem to project what I want my reflection to be.

xoxo

I just wanted easy eggs for breakfast

What a mess!

Have you Pinned things and then tried them and failed? Here is the visual fail of my latest pin. They still taste good though so I can't complain. I have a lot of cleaning to do that is what I have to complain about.

It started out innocent enough. The plan was to make mini crust-less quiche type freezer friendly breakfast thingies. I have such a way with words, don't I? So I started with my 24 cupcake pan chopped fresh spinach, sliced breakfast sausages (I cooked before hand), chopped green onions, sauteed orange pepper, sauteed mushrooms and some sharp white cheddar cheese. This was going to happen and it was going to be awesome. It was all rainbows and sunshine in my mind.

I olive oiled the heck out of this pan then I  put a square of cheese in the bottom of each pan. That was then followed by a few slices of the sausage, then the peppers, spinach, mushrooms and green onions. Perhaps I put a bit to much in each cup but I love to over do the veggies in every meal.

That can easily be confirmed by my family and friends.

Then I added the egg mixture. While making the egg mixture I made up the mixture to my liking I wish now I would have added a small amount of sweet paprika. So I am sure this is where it all went wrong my over zealous filling of the cups with egg mixture.

15 minutes at 450 degrees

The beast starts growing at this point I knew I had over stepped the egg holding limits of my cupcake tins.

It starts to turn into the baked on mess I am writing this post to avoid cleaning up.

This is what I ran out of my kitchen to avoid. Doesn't that look horrid?

At least from all of this I got these delicious morsels, so it's not a total fail. I did try this to make my life easier and it definitely didn't work this first time. Next time, yes after tasting these little monsters there will be a next time, I will try to control myself when filling the cups and then I will call it a win.

What kinds of pins have you tried that didn't turn out as planned?

Have a great day!

xoxo

I'm blogging?

I know I keep saying I am back but then I disappear again. I am not going to make any promises but I am going to try and start getting back to blogging since the baby is over one now and not permanently attached to my boob. I feel this will make it more feasible to actually type things though, so hears hoping for a turn in the blogging direction.

I wanted to confess that I have a new addiction. I know I'm a little behind in the times but i am addicted to Pinterest. Like full on it is feeding my DIY, Crafty, Parent, Comedy, eye candy needs all in one place. It's ridiculous.  You can follow me here as justinora .

I have also started trying to grocery shop for a whole month at a time and am doing pretty good. I like to get all the dinners ready in freezer bags that way in the morning right after breakfast I can take the whole frozen bag from the freezer and put it in the crockpot. It works out really well. Hopefully I will take the time and write up some of the recipes I have been using / making up. I am a chemist in the kitchen and it being that we need to be wheat, soy, apple, nut and strawberry free I really so make up out own way of doing things and eat basically only carbohydrates in the morning in the form of oatmeal. I am also so going to be trying to make some make ahead breakfasts so Hubby can have some yummy food in the morning to get him through the day.


This tidbit was put into blog post for a long time ago considering the baby was only 4 months old. I figured I would share it anyway along with my update even though I am not anywhere I want to be at this time. Perhaps sharing ti will hold me accountable, but let's be really it probably won't considering i seem to fail at blogging all the time, I do need to start running again but it is cold out and I don't want to take myself let alone the baby out in the cold.

So I just had a baby 4 months ago I am not sharing photo's of myself at this moment considering Peanut asked me if my stripes would go away in time for the pool to open. My stripes? Also known as my stretchmarks, gee thanks Peanut you make me feel so great about my self. Anyone else notice that our own kids accidentally insult us the most when all we do it do our best to make them feel good about who they are. I know she didn't mean it to be cruel, but it hurt anyway. Me and my tiger stripes are already down about 20 lbs from before Baby Boy was born, but I just having him baptized and having a lot of pictures taken made me realize I still have  pregnancy arms. The kind of wiggle that waves at your neighbors even after you have stopped, depressing. Weight at this moment 161, not horrible but not my ideal weight and body.

Back to the present day weight comes in at 135, not horrible at all but I would like to fit into all my clothes not just some and not purchase new staples and i like the way my staples fit me when I am down a bit more or even just more muscular. If I starting running I would probably be happy with how I look in a month and weight exactly the same, which it always ridiculous to me. Have any of you even noticed that? Frustrating, but I guess it's good I like myself at that point and should get over the numbers game.

Well, I guess that's it for now but I will try to keep my funny baby stories in my head and start writing them so I can share and enjoy them the second time. Also the things that happen when you have a 1st grader are ridiculous.

Have a great day!